hey, do you know?

Assalamualaikum wr. wb...

i dedicate this night to be a flashback. of you.
hey you.

do you know how sad i was? that day?

do you know how hard for me? been struggling each day, just to wake up and face reality that you're not gonna call me and ask simple questions?

do you know how long for me to realize that you're not that good? that you always get those pervert thoughts, nasty words inside of your head?

do you know how i feel after finally blocking all access just to get over you?

do you know how happy i am now, because after months of struggling i finally move on?

do you know how many thoughts i have in my mind when i see you again? on the internet?

do you know how proud i was, when i finally have the ability not to text you first or reply some of your messages?

and DO YOU KNOW? DO YOU KNOW HOW CONFUSING YOU ARE NOW??? texting me like the way you used to be? acting like there's no big deal have ever happened between us??

you know what mister? THINGS WERE GOING ON BETWEEN US! MONTHS AGO! something happened, you changed, and left. you made a scar in my heart. a big hole. you can't just say that things are ok now. noo it's not okay! a simple apologize wont heal my heart that easy, you knew that. so why are you doing this??
and i know. i can feel something is wrong with you. something that has something to do with me. ME! the one you dumped away!

you, mister, are doing what you did. i'm pretty sure about that, and i'm aware. i don't know what are you up to now, what are you going to do, and your intention of doing, but i'm gonna prepare for the worst.

so, dear you. could you please just go away? shooo! go away! you already have those beautiful-spoiled girls and over control guys around you, so why do you still need me? i'm happy without you, and i'm not gonna let my life and my heart to be broken again. fell for the exact same person, CUH! i dont need you anyway.

just tell me what do you want from me, or leave me alone. period.